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I miss my brother.... [Aug. 15th, 2006|06:02 pm]
I mean I'm just sitting here crying. I never thought I'd miss him this bad. He's gone to the Air Force. He's in BMT (Basic Military Training) at the moment. I don't know what else to say. Just that I miss him, and yet he bugs the crap outta me when he's here! lol I guess it's one of those things you don't realize you have, until you don't have it. I guess I have to admit that I love him, but ya know. I don't like those fuzzy moments. Cause people get all huggy and teary and I feel very uncomfortable then. I like them...but only sometimes.

BTW, have I ever mentioned that I like girls? It's funny, kind of.
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Fine you win missy! [Jul. 31st, 2006|02:27 am]
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I sincerly hope the Lj-cut worked. lol I'm uber newb with it. So forgive me.
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This guy is teh roxxors! [Jun. 26th, 2006|01:19 am]
Xfire conversation with Ticondrius (aka Justin,DeathStalka,Tic)
(spaces are lost time, because it's blah blah blah.)
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WEE this song is so hypnosis! [Jun. 21st, 2006|07:43 pm]
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Well all I gotta say is.... [Jun. 2nd, 2006|10:50 pm]
Nuh nuh...nuh nuh nuh nuh, hey hey hey good bye!

Now I am happy no longer dragging but moving on!
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What I feel was an eventful day. [May. 27th, 2006|10:07 pm]
Today was my neices birthday party. Apparantly they woke her up an hour early so we could sing happy birthday to her. Plus so she can have her cake and presents. She was crying so loud when we were singing and reaching for the cake too! You're aloud to laugh at her, yes. :P While in the middle of eating. I found out that my friend was going to prom! I like jumped up outta my seat and was like (napolian) Yess! I was soo close to going myself too! *shrugs* There's always gonna be next year. ;)

Well I left the party abruptly to go show my friend how happy I was. I caught them all just before they were leaving and gave them my regards. I ended up staying longer cause' I sat down and apparantly they were babysitting these kittens! One laid in my lap the other in the crook of my arm. XD SO CUTE! >< A short while after my friends brother and the rest of the group that calls that house home. Even though they don't actually live there. Asked me if I wanted to come along and play tag at the park. I thought OOOH tag. I haven't played that in a long time. So naturally I came along. Well for the main event of that. I needed to go to the bathroom which was a ways off from the playground. So I was walking on my own. I saw a bottle of unopened Mikes Hard Lemonaid. Which I know a lot of you would say somethign to the extent of "hell yeah!" But that's not me. I do not want that stuff apart of my life! I don't drink because I don't want to drink. Not because I've been told not to do so. Anyway about the malt beverage. I opened it I smelled it. I was going to taste it. What made me stop. Was these thoughts I've always said to myself. "Why lose control of the only thing that I can control?!" I ended up being mad for wanting it. I threw the whole freshly opened bottle against the wall.

Me: My anti-drug....
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Post at Sunlitgames.net C+P [May. 22nd, 2006|02:39 am]
[Current Mood |tiredtired]

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So uh...I hope that lj-cut thingy worked, cause' what I C+Ped is practically spam. I wanted to keep it cause' it tells a lot about what I've been thinking about. Plus ya get to know a little more about how I act elsewhere besides here.
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It's over.... [May. 18th, 2006|09:52 pm]
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So happy, yet deep down I'm hiding tears. An upside down frown that hides what's inside. HAHA! Poet and I didn't even know it! I'm not one to rhymn all the time. ;)

Today was my last choir concert for the school year. I always get really depressed at the end of the year. I get over it though cause' there's stuff to look to in a new year. Doesn't change how I feel right now though! GAH! Why am I not playing music!?

Zombies out for a few minutes soaking up the music....

OH yeah! I forgot I was needing food. Opps! Be right back. Wow that feels so weird to type out usually it's just the BRB. LOL I suppose I used the shortcut so much from playing FPS, be quick and clever or die is the motto. Anyway food! YAY! *grabs for iPod to take the music with her* Ahh crap! I let Sara borrow it yesterday! DOHETH! *SIGH* Fine, I shall be without and left to my toturous thoughts! Consarnitall!

So it was pretty sad. Just like last year I won't have the same director I know and love.

I calmed down a bit more when I got a hug. One of those good snuggly hugs. HAHA! I laugh at my own description of that. The kind a sister would give because she knows what your feeling.

Well sorry too zombified to be more thoughtful, but basically I feel terrible.

Ya know I realized the title. Makes it look like I broke up with someone. *shakes head* Oh man that day is going to be hell. Like a whole freakin' week of zombie kitty! Then back to calm-watchful-kat, then to just plain weird. That's when I become normal. ^^
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*dances* I'm gonna get my hair cut! I'm gonna get my hair cut! [May. 11th, 2006|08:59 am]

Welp today is the day! Been talking about it for months. Well further updates later.

Today I woke up at like 4:30am then I wouldn't get back to sleep. So I ended up talking to myself until it was close to 6am then I heard someone in the kitchen so I went up and there was mom. She asked me if I wanted to go to the Rec. center. I said, "uhh, okay." On I went and swam. YAY. :) Then showered and asked one of my sisters to brade (is that how you spell it?) my hair. I think I may have had my hair braded once before in my life, but can't remember so. It's been a long time. I asked my sister-in-law how it looked and she said cute. I was like pfft. She replied to that with, "what, would you like me to say it looks roughedly boyish? Then would you be happy?" AWW DIS! But I'm used to it coming from her. I say unto you KNOCK OFF ALL THAT EVIL! :) Which reminds me I need to work on that temple recemend. I want to feel worthy so that I can honestly baptise those people. It's not just me involved. So for them and their benefit I shall.

Now we must pray and read scriptures to start the day and remember Jesus! :) *nods* YAY!
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(no subject) [Apr. 15th, 2006|12:33 am]
Well...this time at the LAN party I had maybe 4 sodas. Then a chugging contest and threw up. I don't really feel good, and I'm tired already. Good thing I'm not staying the night. They thought I spiked my drink. But I don't drink even if I can get away with it. With the way it smells! YUCK! I mean would you eat a spoiled apple...honestly!

Festiable was great! I got the hear the judicators comments on a tape recorder. And DAAAMN we sound good! I had much fun with this one cause' we had more improve stuff we could do. Like on this gospel rock song. When the guy soloist was up. I said, "YEAH! Tell it like it is brotha!" I love the ones you can just roll with. Makes them so much more thrilling to perform. For example one of the choirs. I wasn't all that impressed with. Got to their last song, which started out. Shut the DO' keep out the devil! Light a candle every ting' is alright!" They were bouncing with it. I was kinda getting into it too. It was just one of those songs (as a director once said) that wasn't a suit song! I like performing also for the peoples reaction. I like what singing does to me. I can lock in with the emotion of the song. I can think of only one time where that wasn't a good thing. I couldn't keep myself together for the other half of the song! It was just so...spiritual too me. The song was Awake my Heart. We got to this occapella part that went. "My heart shall be thy dwelling with joy and gladdness swelling. Thy word, thy nurture. To bring me on towards heaven." If you heard the cords. You'd lose it too. Very beautiful song.

Well back to playing.
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